The third section is supposed to be about the mistakes I made fathering my son, Tylor. I already said I don't really want to talk about them, but if honesty is my goal, then I must.
The past few chapters show what sort of things I have been ignorant of. Being ignorant of the truth, I allowed my son to fall into the control of CSD.
It is therefore my own ignorance of these things which has allowed CSD so free a hand to do their worst. If there is anything I am guilty of, it is ignorance. My honest intent has always been to be a good parent and do for my children what needed done for them to have a chance of surviving in today's world.
Through my ignorance, I have failed them miserably.
But, is my ignorance a justification for CSD's acts?
Why do I think not?
All my ignorance did was make it easy for them, CSD, to abuse their power more than they might have if I'd been aware of their propensity. The fact is, that if they'd really been interested in helping Tylor for all these years, instead of protecting themselves, the road to Tylor's recovery would have been embarked upon much sooner.
We, Tylor's family, have for more than just since CSD became involved, known that there was some sort of problem, and probably more than one, within Tylor. If my ignorance of CSD's methods and motives are damaging as far as Tylor is concerned, then imagine the moral debt owed to myself, Tylor's mother, his Grandparents, and the Pastre's by CSD for their inexcusable insensitivity to Tylor's needs. Not to mention the fact that if any citizen were to act as irresponsibly as they, it would be a chargeable, punishable offense of abuse and neglect.
Time has proven that it was only after years of ignoring the real problems, while at the same time trying to prove the same charges of abuse and neglect repeatedly, against Tylor's parents, and failing at every turn to do so, that CSD was forced into proceeding down a road they staunchly ignored and denied needed traveling. Even in the face of overwhelming evidence they have procrastinated until they themselves claim only the most drastic, and expensive of treatments would benefit Tylor.
For what reason was Tylor made to suffer the disruption, and instability of removal from his parents and family? For what reason had CSD denied the existence of any problem within Tylor that needed professional treatment? For what reason has this family been persecuted and defamed?
Could it be that if it weren't for the stubborn refusal of this family to give up even in the face of insurmountable odds, and power, that a correct action would never have been taken?
How can they (CSD) ever look my son, Tylor, in the eye and tell him they did everything for his own good?
I think perhaps, that the debt they owe Tylor, is greater than they can ever repay. I think perhaps they'd better pray that one day he can forgive them for their cruel, selfish actions in this case. I can't. Not now. Not ever. At least not until I hear the publicly spoken words, the only two words CSD can ever say, that I might listen to: I'm sorry.
But don't say them to me, I'm not listening. Say it to Tylor. And say it to the Judge, and pray to GOD, they listen.